Why, oh why do I always have to be the responsible one? I guess I could be irresponsible if I wanted to, I am sometimes irresponsible- but not in front of my parents. But I constantly feel the need to put on the responsible act for my parents because they’re always stressing out about my sister and her irresponsibility; a.k.a all the going out too much, “bad” grades, arguing with parents, frittering away with laptop disease etc.
What do I mean by the responsible act? On a day where my sister is being particularly difficult about doing homework or something (maths especially; which my mum is always nagging her to do) I get out my homework and start doing it. This isn’t particularly helpful I realise, now that I think about it, because it makes my sister look even worse, but it may possibly help ease the “pain” of my ever-worrying mum. TT” (My dad just tries to keep out of it, I don’t blame him).
However, it MOST LIKELY worsens the problem. I mean, making the contrast between me and my sister bigger isn’t going to help at all- but I can’t just go around acting irresponsible so that my sister’s “image” with my parents isn’t completely ruined. If it isn’t already.
She has no idea how big the problem is.
If she would just be responsible again. Then I wouldn’t have to listen to my mum’s constant nagging of me to teach my sister Maths homework (concepts which my sister will never ATTEMPT to understand) or my mum’s complaining of how tired she is with my sister’s attitude as well as how worried she is.
I really try to be as patient as possible, listening to the complaints- secretly clenching my fists so that I don’t completely lose it. But a person can only stand so much. Now I know how others feel… well, one person in particular.
